Hey Mom, Sooooo many things to unpack here. I am going to try to get through all of it, so be patient. Funny, where are you going to go? Morbid, I know. Moving on. First, Mother's day was a few weeks ago. I never know how to act, what to do, where to go, etc. Hubs usually takes the girls to Grandma's and we all end up there for dinner. When you were here, Dad would bring you. This time it was just him. This was the first one without you. I felt like people were watc

Hey Mom, A few months after you left us one of my older neighbors passed away. I had just gotten all the girls off to school and saw a few different vehicles and a police car out side their house. I went inside and sat where I could see what was going on outside. Tapping away at my computer, I heard sirens in the distance. Soon those sirens went silent and an ambulance pulled up. I watched as the EMT's go inside. They were in there for a while. During that time I texte

Hey mom. You know what sucks? Love. Love sucks. Today is your 47th wedding anniversary. 47 years of "for better, for worse, for richer or poorer, in sickness and in health". Sickness. I used to think that meant a cold, flu or the worst one I could come up with was cancer. Nope. I never, ever thought it would be Alzheimers. Watching the person you pledged those vows to disappear right in front of you. Then having to care for that person every minute of every day. Watching them

Hi Mom, I decided to walk around the park today while C was at practice. When she first made the team I knew we would be here a couple of times a week and told myself I should walk to get some exercise, and maybe lose some weight in the process. Well, I stopped because I felt it was doing anything to help. I don't know yet if I was wrong but todays walk got me thinking a little clearer. The walk around was perfect. Perfect temperature, perfect breeze, perfect sky, perfec

Mom, Yesterday was your birthday. You would have turned 66. I didn't even realize it till the night before. I had been working on a puzzle for hours. I looked at my watch and it was 1:30 in the morning. I chuckled to myself because I do that. I get so involved in puzzles that I can't stop. After telling myself I should get some sleep because I had to wake up early for a soccer game, I thought about what the date was. Yep, it was your birthday. As I went to sleep I ho

Hi mom. It has been a crazy week. We had four soccer games last week. A's team won all three of theirs, and C's team lost again. So proud of both of them. I think they are both done with soccer. A wants to play lacrosse, I want her to be happy and do what she wants but I don't see her playing after college like I did when she was playing soccer and loved it. I blame the Varsity coach and myself. The coach because he is a liar and a coward. He lied to her for the past

Dear Mom, I find my procrastinating has gotten too good. So many things needing to get done. Dishes in the sink, dust bunnies lining the floors and under furniture, bathrooms need cleaning, lawn needs mowing, bedroom needs to be picked up, etc. So many mundane chores no one wants to do. Especially me. I usually find an excuse to not do them. Like my morning errands took too long, really they didn't. I am usually home before lunch, which I will eat then get tired and tell myse

Dear Mom, Our neighbors have gone out of town for a few days so we are dog sitting. The sister of the dad of the house, is getting married not far from here, but it is at a resort so why not go away. I get it. I would too. They have two pure bred German Shepard. One is a few years old, and the other is a couple of months old. The older one is all black and just the sweetest big oaf who saunters about but once he lays down, won't get up for at least an hour. He also lik

Dear Mom, As the new year begins I can't help but think of you. Lately, I find myself wearing the necklace with your ashes in it. When you passed I wasn't sure if having your ashes with me was morbid or a good idea. I realized it was an "ok" idea after finding the perfect one for me and the girls. Your oldest grandchild, A, has a beautiful guitar, your middle grandchild, Z, has angel wings, and the youngest, C, has a locket with a picture of you holding her the day she wa